Apologize

Regardless of how you may feel, or what you are going through..  The conscious effort to avoid conflict while dealing with your inner demons(as I like to call them), is a step in the direction of self healing. Whether that works, is a different question.

Let’s face it.. you can’t control the actions or feelings of the ones you are trying to protect during your down. Usually, you try your best to warn them: “I’m emotionally unavailable and don’t want to take it out on you”, they turn around and disregard you. Immediately what you wanted to avoid, becomes the exact thing that happens.

What do you do now? Apologize. Always apologizing. We just want you to understand, it’s not you we are upset with.. It’s ourselves! We hate that we need reassurance constantly and validation our feelings are heard. Sometimes we just need space to feel. Or, Not at all. Silence for ourselves, to process the right thoughts and not the insecurities others have placed in our broken minds. A breather.. to breathe.