Self Sabotage

Self sabotage baby! What’s wrong with me yall? I single-handedly will ruin every relationship. Yepp, you heard it. I am a self sabatoger and I will not make loving me easy. Why? Someone or people have told me I wasn’t worth it, or Worthy of uncontiondional love. My brain is now wired to notice patterns and automatically when things are going great we will search for a reason why we shouldn’t or can’t. Our minds are our worst enemy. We have convinced ourselves over years of abuse.. we will put ourselves back into the rut. No one believes youre crazy until they have been on the receiving end. It’s easier to point at them, call them crazy, because their illness isn’t visible. No one wants to ask, well what triggers you to do this? How can we change this way of tthinking? I pray they have enough patience for us. Because I promise you all we want is happiness.